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Chill out and know that God knows what's up.

Jesus told them, “This is the only work God wants from you: Believe in the one he has sent” (John 6:29, NLT).

 Daric (my fiance) keeps reminding me focus on Jesus and let the rest come.  Seek first the kingdom and all that jazz.  He's so right, but I don't want to sit back and wait--I need to find the balance of proactivity and trust.  Not doing so well with that this week.  I've been stressed and freaking out--no matter how hard I try to relax.  I feel guilty for not earning much money when we are in so much debt.

 Today, I suddenly have more options for jobs than I have in my whole search.  None all that perfect for me but things I can do.  I need wisdom and grace to figure out the best thing to do--the timing of all of this is insane.  It may involve some risk-taking.

 But for now, I need to breathe.  To be still and know that the one who gives names to the stars knows my position.  To know that he is The Best Possible Thing and that I am in his sights.  He has heard my cry and doesn't find it annoying or petty.  He clothes the insignificant, fleeting lilies of the field and I am the pinnacle of creation.  I have a roof over my head by his provision and the love of his people.  I have food to eat by that same grace.  I have nothing to worry about.  

 I'll make pro and con lists later.  Right now, it's time to chill out and know that God know's what's up.

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